Last night was one of the worst I've had in a real long time. The thing is, it didn't involve the thousands of people I loathe that come to my work, but the love of my life. Almost lost her last night. I almost lost her because I was letting my dick do the thinking for the last couple of weeks. Because of a part of my past that for some reason I couldn't let go. Last night showed me that I have to let that part of my past go if I'm gonna have a future with this amazing woman that I'm with. I fucked up big time and I just want everything to go back to the way that it was. I love her so much and the thought of not having her in my life is terrifying. She treats me 100x better than any girl I've ever known. She's been there for me through some tough times and I almost gave it up for someone I had a fling with two years ago. Frankly, I should be taken out into the pasture and shot.
If you're reading this love, just know that I was a damn fool and it isn't gonna happen again. I'm gonna make sure of it this time.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
11/08/2010
Not really much to post today...it was actually a really good day. Relaxed and enjoyed myself. Watched that flick "Winter's Bone", which seriously, if anybody who reads this hasn't seen it.....DO SO!!! One of the year's best flicks. One I plan on getting on Blu when the price goes down. The rest of the day was kinda uneventful... :-\
Sunday, November 7, 2010
11/07/2010
Today started off pretty normally actually, well except for being sick. Trying to get over a sinus infection. Or at least I think it's a sinus infection. Truthfully I don't know what it is. Anyway, woke up and went downstairs and munched on some donuts before getting in the shower. After that I proceeded to browse online as I am normally wont to do after a shower. After that I decided to go to Albertsons to use the Redbox and rent a couple flicks to keep me busy. Grabbed "Splice" and "Winter's Bone". Watched "Splice" earlier and it was a gigantic waste of time and money. No surprise, I seriously would have been better off renting the "A Nightmare on Elm Street" remake or "The Girl Who Played With Fire" but for some reason I didn't. But this isn't a place for me to review movies.
Anyway, one of the things that really bothered me today was the fact that I'm not a big fan of solicitation outside of the places I wanna shop at. Yes, that even includes those Girl Scouts and their damn cookies!! My reasoning for this is, I don't like to be bothered when I'm out and about, I like to just get in, get out and get on with life and here they are stopping me to ask if I'm registered to vote, or if I have any spare change to donate to this charity or if I have a wire hanger (yes I actually got asked this the other night, not sure what the lady needed it for but it was fucking weird). Now, before you go off on a rampage and say that I'm a douchebag or a prick, hear me out. Most of us don't have a lot of money these days and those of us who do, don't live in the particular city that I live in. To put it bluntly, I live in a ghetto ass city. Anyway, back to the solicitors. Whenever I get asked for money or something it almost always makes me feel like crap, because if I did have tons of money, I would be more than happy to give them a buck or two to help them out. But I'm barely making minimum wage in a job that I fucking loathe with a passion, and I'm trying to save up for shit. It makes me feel crappier too when they see me walking out with bags in my hand and I tell them I don't have anything to offer. I feel like as I'm walking back to my car that their eyes are burning holes into my back and that they're looking at me in a bad way. I kinda care about what certain people think of me, particularly the good people out there. I couldn't give two shits what Joe Schmoe and his dumb blonde hoe think. I'm getting off track here anyway, I don't like solicitors at any place that I go to so I normally have to go out of my way to avoid them, like today I had to park on the complete opposite side of the store from where the Redbox was.
I'm probably a misanthrope. I need to look into that.
Anyway, one of the things that really bothered me today was the fact that I'm not a big fan of solicitation outside of the places I wanna shop at. Yes, that even includes those Girl Scouts and their damn cookies!! My reasoning for this is, I don't like to be bothered when I'm out and about, I like to just get in, get out and get on with life and here they are stopping me to ask if I'm registered to vote, or if I have any spare change to donate to this charity or if I have a wire hanger (yes I actually got asked this the other night, not sure what the lady needed it for but it was fucking weird). Now, before you go off on a rampage and say that I'm a douchebag or a prick, hear me out. Most of us don't have a lot of money these days and those of us who do, don't live in the particular city that I live in. To put it bluntly, I live in a ghetto ass city. Anyway, back to the solicitors. Whenever I get asked for money or something it almost always makes me feel like crap, because if I did have tons of money, I would be more than happy to give them a buck or two to help them out. But I'm barely making minimum wage in a job that I fucking loathe with a passion, and I'm trying to save up for shit. It makes me feel crappier too when they see me walking out with bags in my hand and I tell them I don't have anything to offer. I feel like as I'm walking back to my car that their eyes are burning holes into my back and that they're looking at me in a bad way. I kinda care about what certain people think of me, particularly the good people out there. I couldn't give two shits what Joe Schmoe and his dumb blonde hoe think. I'm getting off track here anyway, I don't like solicitors at any place that I go to so I normally have to go out of my way to avoid them, like today I had to park on the complete opposite side of the store from where the Redbox was.
I'm probably a misanthrope. I need to look into that.
Introduction
You're probably wondering, what the hell is this blog gonna be about? Who is this guy, and what does he have to bitch about? Well, quite a lot apparently. See, I'm what you would call, the guy who puts everything on everyone else and never takes responsibility for himself. I bitch and moan about stuff that is for the most part, almost always out of my hands but I do it just to do it. Just because a lot of things get on my bad side. A lot of people too...
That's precisely what this blog is gonna be about. My biggest gripes with people and things. It's also gonna be a sort of daily journal of the things that I do during the day. It's kind of a way for me to not place everything on everybody. So let's begin shall we............
That's precisely what this blog is gonna be about. My biggest gripes with people and things. It's also gonna be a sort of daily journal of the things that I do during the day. It's kind of a way for me to not place everything on everybody. So let's begin shall we............
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