Last night was one of the worst I've had in a real long time. The thing is, it didn't involve the thousands of people I loathe that come to my work, but the love of my life. Almost lost her last night. I almost lost her because I was letting my dick do the thinking for the last couple of weeks. Because of a part of my past that for some reason I couldn't let go. Last night showed me that I have to let that part of my past go if I'm gonna have a future with this amazing woman that I'm with. I fucked up big time and I just want everything to go back to the way that it was. I love her so much and the thought of not having her in my life is terrifying. She treats me 100x better than any girl I've ever known. She's been there for me through some tough times and I almost gave it up for someone I had a fling with two years ago. Frankly, I should be taken out into the pasture and shot.
If you're reading this love, just know that I was a damn fool and it isn't gonna happen again. I'm gonna make sure of it this time.
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